my throat is damn sore.
i have difficulty in swallowing food and even liquid.
i hope it gets better as i have no time to see the doctor.
I'm so stressed nowadays.
the bad part is not about the many things to do.
is that i don't understand the things that I'm doing.

many individual reports and group projects to do.
it is taking so much of my time.
sigh.
I'm happy that i got an A+ for my cgmp report.. whoohoo.
A for Unitop, B for PCON and A for cgmp.
arghhh, stupid PCON, i did the paper without understanding.
it's just all memorising. i really don't know how to carry on listening to PCON lectures
when i don't understanding most of the things.
sometimes i really hate to ask people questions.
need to see their 脸色...wth.
I've been asking people for help most of the time.
in the past i took for granted, thinking that if i ask for help, i will get help.
yes, i will get help, but as time goes, i realised that people will get irritated by me.

I'm really an idiot for this semester.
furthermore, I'm working part time.
fck, you think i wanna work is it?
if I'm not going for overseas internship, i wont be working.
I'm really trying very hard to work and study at the same time.
sometimes, what i get is nagging, scoldings and no encouragement.
anyway, i think too much, that's why i will feel so damn depressed sometimes.
sometimes, i really hope that this semester can be over as soon as possible so that i can
faster fly to china and have a new experience there.
I'm getting tired to face all the problems that I'm having now.


if u are so tired of talking to me, then don't talk, don't even answer the phone.
i initiated to hang up the phone doesn't mean that i don't wanna talk.
I'm just helping you to do it.
why should i worry so much at the first place?
why must i fell guilty for not calling you
since u don't even have the intention to call or wait for my call.
I'm really an idiot.
a crazy idiot that worries for everything.
好想回到過去...会到以前开心的日子, 希望能够什么都不变 :)