Hey blog sorry for not posting things here for a long time. Yea, I was busy with school work and work in TCC and further more, too lazy to blog hehe.
Just came back from Germany after a good 6 months and I'm finally a jobless adult! haha.
Germany was really good man. Many things happened over there, good, bad fun. Only I know, is too long to say it here since I only start writing about it now. lol.
Got my final results and I got a 2.8 and is good enough already because I expected a 3.0. Yup, I cleared all my modules surprisingly and I got the chance to Germany with the first batch of students! HAHA AMEN. My thesis really helped me a lot because I got 1.7 for it and I can say is my supervisor is very good and I didn't really do much compared to other students except reading many research papers and online information about it because my topic was quite hard to understand at the start. I didn't get the topic I wanted, the one I got was my 9th choice. However, I leave it to God and ended up I got a nice supervisor! thanks Robert HAHAH.
okay, my love life.... i went to read the previous posts that I wrote long ago without posting it, and now im answering all the questions in those unpublished posts. YES, i broke up wif Mr lee because I realise I cant continue the relationship with him anymore. The answer in my heart was more certain after celebrating our 4th year anniversary, I tried my best. Yes I truly ridiculously fell in love with Mr leung. However, we remained as friends, good friends, close friends, then friends behaving like a couple but not together, friends doing things that married couples did, for that 1.5 years. Is just too fucked up. We went through many things and events. After i broke up with Mr Lee, life wasn't good for me, thanks to Mr leung. I went crazy over him, and we quarrelled, we cried. What happened in Germany is just too crazy to describe it here. I don't know why God let me go through this, it was really hard for me. I have no one to share about it except God. However, i became a better and stronger person as i learnt a lot from what has happened, but in a tough way. After the end of my university life, I thought things between me and Mr leung will be over. After trying so hard to get an answer from him since a year ago, he finally answered me. Yes, we are now in a relationship, but a weird one because he doesn't wants to hold hands and no one can know about it for the moment. He's willing to try for 6 months, then after that see how, sounds like im under probation. Sometimes i feel like we are still close friends. Now i feel quite stressed being with him because he seem to be expecting a lot from me. Sigh, i was thinking whether did i make the correct choice anot, i should be right? since I got what ive been waiting for. Ouh, he's totally different from Mr lee, he's unsensitive, self-centered and he doesn't really care a lot for me like how Mr lee did. Mr lee really gave me a lot of good memories although we keep quarrelling. As I have only get into one real relationship which was with Mr lee, he's like my gauge of the guy i want to be with. I want to be with Mr leung so much, but he has hurt me a lot even until now, that's why i really hope that I didn't make the wrong choice. Yes, there is Mr chen who came along just before the Germany trip. I shall talk about him again when i meet him after he comes back from Taiwan.
Yes, now i have problems finding a job because i don't really know the actual position i want, actually any position will do as long i get the pay i deserve because my aim now is to faster repay my school loans. Most jobs are for diploma holders and i hate interviews, that's the worse part. I really hope God will bless me with a job that suits me and i shall go more interviews to practice my speech and also my interview skills. The first interview i went, i felt like i was taking an exam. i spent the whole day before the day of the interview to prepare and is like studying for exam. After the interview, i was super happy i felt like i just finish and exam, like the feeling was much better that the feeling of finishing exam. Im too nervous and stressed. i hate interviews but at the same time i need to go for it to get a job ya? D;
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