wth.

Recently I have been troubled by something, someone.

The 2 new interns from TP came in during mid march, a guy and a girl.

Both are irritating, the guy as usual was more irritating at first. As time goes, I started to have a friendship with the 2 interns. One day, I need to OT and the guy stayed and accompany me.

He started to share his life as he used to go church because his mom asked him to. I thought it was a good opportunity to share my testimony and how I went back to God, at the same time considering to bring him to church. However, at that point of time I still find him irritating and pissed because I dont see him respecting me as I see him as my intern. Surprisingly, he is very willing to come to my church for almost every saturday. One day, after church as usual we had dinner with the lifegroup and after dinner we loitered around jem and westgate. After that, the people decided to watch wonder woman. Since I have watched the show with bryan, I decided not to join them and my intern decided to leave too because he was going to meet his friends for supper. He was going to yishun to fetch one of his girl friend so I asked if he can send me home at the same time. His friend who was working at safra ends work at 11pm and at that point time it was still early so I decided to accompany him till his friend ends work. We went to the pet shop in yishun, i brought him to my messy home (he said he needs to use the toilet) we roamed around safra. I was really enjoying my time with him. After his friend ended work, we went to find his friends and he send me home after that. I remember I was so shy around his friend that I dont even dare to talk. From that on, I started to treat him as a good friend instead of an intern. My impression of him changed and I find myself enjoying the times I spend with him. We became closer as we see each other almost everyday. Literally. I started to have this very wrong feeling. Why am I feeling this way? Hes younger than me by 5 years, not handsome to start with, I have a boyfriend, what the hell was I thinking?  I started to miss his presence and talking to him. I was quite bothered about this feeling about him inside me. I can also see that he enjoys being with me but I dont know how he feels about it. Anyway, he is like a younger brother to me and I need to remind myself that. I prayed about it and I am aware that I shouldn't be so close to him although we are friends. I was quite sian for the past few days because I can't believe that this is happening to me and I find myself freaking weird and desperate. Their internship ends at the start of september. I hope that not seeing him everyday will make things better but at the same time I dont look forward to it.