While I am writing this now, I am listening to 後別做朋友 by Eric Zhou. Today should be a life group day but I was not feeling well so i decided to skipped it. i wasted my whole day sleeping, wake up eat, sleep then wake up eat again. Today I should be doing prayer and I was quite sian about it. And I was sick so i ended up not doing it. Heh. I know I shouldn't be feeling a sigh of relief because this means that I am not doing something that is honoring to God. I felt happy that I don't need to head to work. What makes me hate work now is not the work, is the transport to and from work. Screwed up sia SMRT. Train crowded nevermind, no air con is the worst since my travelling journey is around 45 mins in train. Argh. My colleagues kept asking me when I am gonna get married, when gonna bto because buying a house is hard now, not getting young etc. I felt pressured but I know God is in control and I can leave it all to Him instead of worrying about it.
I did it again. How can I face God with it again and again. How can I get rid this bad habit of mine? Sigh, the feeling of guilt becomes the feeling of helplessness, hopelessness. It stops me from going forward. But, the urge always comes back to me.
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