Bothered.

I am so bothered with what I am going through now. I'm offered with a so many choices with a good remuneration package but it seems like I need to reject all. First one was because it is a shift work, I rejected them at first because the basic they have offered me was low and they willing to increase to the amount higher than my current basic salary. If I am working shift, I can't attend service regularly, even serving in the tuition ministry which I am doing now will not be possible. Everything was good for the second offer, but it is a tobacco company. I know that it would be a grey area for me as i am a christian but i feel a little guilty in my heart knowing that I shouldn't work there if I really want to honour God. Money is really one of my main reason to change a job, that is why I rejected my first offer which they offered me less than a 10% increase of my current salary. Sigh, it is so tempting to really go ahead and accept the one that pays me the most, but when God comes to mind, I don't feel that God will be happy about it. Does that mean I don't feel the peace? Anyway I have another offer which is a local training for 18 months with allowance but no CPF. I was really looking forward to this offer, however they are so damn slow. I emailed them and was told that they are still in the midst of interviewing and finalising, arghh. This is the only job that honours God so far, but package is the worst among all. Furthermore, i heard from my colleagues that the culture is not good. I was wondering if i still want to pursue in working in the pharmaceutical industry and if i want, this will be beneficial for me in the future. If I am not shortlisted for it, I need to find a job all over again, and going for interviews. I had enough of it seriously. 

God, please guide my path in making the decisions that will honour you. Furthermore, I'm going through something tough, with so many things bothering me, how I wish God would just end my life, but I know God wants me to face it and not run away from it. I pray for the Holy spirit to give me peace and comfort that I need, most importantly guiding me into making the right decisions. Amen